Visual Soliloquy #412: Distance not only gives nostalgia, but perspective, and maybe objectivity…

Distance not only gives nostalgia, but perspective, and maybe objectivity. –Robert Morgan

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Visual Soliloquy #411: Leisure is a form of silence, not noiselessness. It is the silence of contemplation such as occurs when we let our minds rest on a rosebud…

Leisure is a form of silence, not noiselessness. It is the silence of contemplation such as occurs when we let our minds rest on a rosebud, a child at play, a Divine mystery, or a waterfall.–Fulton J. Sheen

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Visual Soliloquy #410 If Antarctica were music it would be Mozart…

If Antarctica were music it would be Mozart. Art, and it would be Michelangelo. Literature, and it would be Shakespeare. And yet it is something even greater; the only place on earth that is still as it should be. May we never tame it. ~ Andrew Denton

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Visual Soliloquy #409 Remember that wherever your heart is, there you will find your treasure…

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Visual Soliloquy #408: We have to dare to be ourselves, however frightening or strange that self may prove to be…

We have to dare to be ourselves, however frightening or strange that self may prove to be. – May Sarton

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An Offering of Mount Vinson Videos (and one of penguins because I couldn’t resist))

Here’s a video with some of the views seen when flying from Union Glacier to Mount Vinson Base Camp.  This was shot on the day I flew out of Vinson Base Camp by Steve Kroeger as he flew in.

Here’s a Vinson summit video made by Leif Whittaker in 2010.  You can spot Dave Hahn taking a picture of the climber on the summit.  They had a much windier summit day than we did.

Here’s a Mount Vinson summit panorama done by Rob Jarvis.  What a view!  Thanks to Rob for capturing what I didn’t on the summit (I didn’t carry a video camera on this expedition though now I wish I had.)

Here’s another made by my friend, Eric Larsen.  He spent the season working in Antarctica and lead a trip to visit the Emperor penguin colony.  This video gets me giggling every time and I know that at some point, I’d like to return to coastal Antarctica so I can see the wildlife there in person.

Here’s another by Eric Larsen giving a look at Union Glacier and the wonderful folks who work there making adventures possible for the those who drop in/through.

Here’s some video of the Ilyushin 76 landing on the Blue Ice runway…pretty darn amazing…This is the plane that shuttles Antarctic adventurers from Punta Arenas to the continent and back.

 

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Every Moment is New

We woke up yesterday and looked up towards Signal Hill and noticed a strange new cross looking item plastered to the side of the hill. We knew it was new and knew it must not have been there long and wondered what it was. The sun was out and as soon as we finished out yummy breakfast, we headed out on the hill to check it out. Given the location of our quest, we took a new route up to get to it and I was tickled to realize that after 600 or so ascents of Signal Hill, there was a new route to put together from bottom to top (I’d been on all the parts/trails we used-just never used them together to get from the bottom to top).

When we arrived at the “cross”, it seems like it might be a new lookout or outdoor drama space and it’s more of a ship’s mast than cross. It was different looking down on the city from that angle and location (just across from the Geo Centre-in the background with the blue roof). Anyone know what’s it supposed to be?

We continued up the hill to the Queen’s Battery and enjoyed some photography and views from there. It’s always good to look at a place (and ourselves) from new and different vantage points.

We headed down the backside of Signal Hill and then decided to do a “winter ascent” of Cuckhold Head. There’s no snow at the moment but the main ascent gully is full of a decent bit of ice so we climbed the steep section out of the gully on the left. We looked down on Quidi Vidi and some of the new fishing stages.

From Cuckhold Head, you get a very different look at Signal Hill and Cabot Tower. An eagle flew over our heads while we looked about and I swear, 2012 will be the year I finally get it together to camp on top of Cuckhold Head.

I found this benchmark on top of Cuckhold Head. They are placed by surveyors and it’s the first one I’ve found in the province. I was amazed that with the number of times I’ve been to the top of Cuckhold Head, I hadn’t spotted it. I appreciated that there was lots of new things to see if I truly open up my eyes to look. Every moment is indeed new and though I may have walked a certain way before, each time can be fresh and new. And that’s how I’m hoping to unfold 2012…with fresh and new eyes, thinking and moving.

 

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Visual Soliloquy #407: Your birth date doesn’t determine your age: you are old when…

Your birth date doesn’t determine your age: you are old when regrets start replacing your dreams.

– Gary Smith

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Visual Soliloquy #406: Between stimulus and response there is a space…

Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.
–Viktor E. Frankl

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Visual Soliloquy #405: Make it a habit to tell people thank you. To express your appreciation, sincerely and without the expectation of anything in return. Truly appreciate those around you…

Make it a habit to tell people thank you. To express your appreciation, sincerely and without the expectation of anything in return. Truly appreciate those around you, and you’ll soon find many others around you. Truly appreciate life, and you’ll find that you have more of it. –Ralph Marston

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Visual Soliloquy #404: If you would be a real seeker after truth, it is necessary that at least once in your life you…

If you would be a real seeker after truth, it is necessary that at least once in your life you doubt, as far as possible, all things.–Rene Descartes

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Local university prof climbs highest mountain in Antarctica; Everest next goal – Local – The Telegram

Local university prof climbs highest mountain in Antarctica; Everest next goal – Local – The Telegram.

TA on Vinson Summit with Newfoundland FlagAfter successfully climbing Antarctica’s highest peak in December, Memorial University professor TA Loeffler is just one mountain short of conquering all seven summits — the highest peaks on each continent.

The fifth largest and least explored of the seven continents, Antarctica is the most remote and coldest. An estimated 98 per cent of the continent is covered by ice.

At 4,897 metres above sea level, Mount Vinson is Antarctica’s highest peak.

Loeffler and her three team members flew in a Russian cargo plane from Punta Arenas, Chile, to Antarctica Dec. 3. They landed on the runway of Union Glacier.

Veteran American professional climbing guide Dave Hahn led the team. Hahn has been to the top of Mount Everest — the world’s highest mountain — 13 times.

A woman from Toronto and a man from New York City were the other two people on the team.

After a meal of beef stew and roasted beets at Union Glacier, the team boarded a Twin Otter ski-equipped plane to Mount Vinson base camp Dec. 4 to find a storm brewing high upon the mountain.

They took a day to wait for the storm to subside.

“Our first day we went halfway from base camp to the first camp and left a load of fuel and supplies there. Then we went back down to base camp,” Loeffler said.

The next day the team climbed to low camp where the members set up their tents in extremely windy conditions.

They rested for a day at low camp before heading, with their supplies, to high camp.

“High camp is a stellar location. You can see out to the Antarctica plateau. You just see ice and snow as far as you look,” Loeffler said.

‘Need to maintain that perfect balance’

After dropping their supplies at high camp, the climbers headed down to low camp — knowing they’d have to repeat the same climb the next day.

Glacier mountaineering is a unique experience that requires the team to “rope up” to defend against the danger of falling into a crevasse.

Loeffler said because of spreading the team out along about 120 metres of rope, not everyone will end up on the same snow bridge over a crevasse.

That way, she said, if a snow bridge collapses and someone drops in, the rest of the team can fall down onto their ice axes to keep the dropping climber from going too deep.

The most experienced climber usually leads the rope team up the mountain.

Hahn filled that spot on Loeffler’s team. The second most experienced climber is often the last person attached to the rope with other team members tied in between. Hahn asked Loeffler to take the last spot on the rope.

Climbing roped to other people means you have to concentrate on every step you take, Loeffler said.

“The moment your mind drifts, you’ll trip. You’ll step on the rope and let it get too slack or too tight. So you need to maintain that perfect balance of just touching the snow in front of you.”

Temperatures during the climb ranged from about -20 C to -38 C.

“You’re constantly having to be mindful of where your hands are and where your toes are so that you’re not getting frostbite or hypothermia,” Loeffler said.

With sunlight 24 hours a day in Antarctica in December, and with a thinning of the ozone layer over the continent, Loeffler said, it’s easy to get severe sunburn on your face.

“You put sun block on, but your nose is constantly running so you have to be careful that you don’t wipe it off.”

Loeffler said at no time during any part of the climb did she feel certain her team would reach the summit.

One climber was struggling to keep going, she said, and at one point they thought they’d have to turn back.

However, she said, her teammate did not quit and all four climbers crested the peak of the mountain Dec. 11.

The Newfoundland flag was the first item Loeffler reached for in her bag when she stood atop the mountain — a flag that’s been to the top of top of six continents with her.

“If it were to happen that there would be only time or opportunity for one summit picture, I wanted it to be with this flag, the Newfoundland flag,” Loeffler wrote on her blog.

Loeffler has climbed in all seven continents.

She has conquered Mount Kilimanjaro in Africa, Mount Aconcagua in South America, Mount Elbrus in Europe, Mount Denali in North America and Mount Kosciuszko in Australia.

She is very much aware that she has only one more mountain to climb to have crested all seven summits.

Asia’s Mount Everest is an incredible 8,848 meters above sea level.

Loeffler has attempted the climb on two occasions.

In 2007 she turned back when she came down with a waterborne disease called giardia.

Her 2010 attempt ended when she developed a bladder infection.

While she’s yet to commit to another Everest attempt, it’s unlikely that Loeffler will settle for six out of seven.

Loeffler met Hahn during one of her Everest attempts.

When contacted by e-mail recently, Hahn said Loeffler was a “huge help” to him on the Mount Vinson climb.

She came to the expedition thoroughly prepared, he said.

“She’d meticulously gone through her gear and food for the trip and was physically ready for intense cold and prolonged exertion at altitude.”

Hahn said that when his attention was focused on looking after less-skilled and less-prepared climbers, he was certain he could count on Loeffler to hold things together — not just for herself but for her team members.

Hahn said Loeffler’s ability to cope with physical challenges is impressive. She also has a grasp of the “big picture” and all sorts of odd situations that come up in the average climbing trip, he said.

“All of that should help her a great deal in returning to Mount Everest,” he said.

It’s impossible, he said, to predict how an attempt at Everest will pan out for any climber.

On four occasions, he said, he turned back within 1,000 feet (about 304 metres) of the top.

“I’m confident that TA will attempt the mountain safely and responsibly and with respect for the place and the people around her … all of which means more to me than simply tagging the top,” he said.

Published on January 4, 2012
Danette Dooley

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danette@nl.rogers.com

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Visual Soliloquy #403: Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today…

Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.
–Rumi
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Visual Soliloquy #402: Leap, and the net will appear…

Leap, and the net will appear.
– Julie Cameron

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Happy New Year 2012

We must not, in trying to think about how we can make a big difference, ignore the small daily difference we can make which, over time, add up to big differences that we often cannot foresee.
–Marian Wright Edelman

My dear friend, Karen, sent me the above quote a few days ago and it was perfect.  I was ruminating on what expedition could and should come next, what I wanted my plans for 2012 to be, how could I fit all the pieces together to make a big difference and in reality, it was all too soon.  I hadn’t even fully digested and articulated my experiences in Antarctica, let alone settled back into the routine of every day life (albeit wonderful holiday life which is a rarity for me).  Invariably, as soon as I return from one climb or adventure, one of the first questions I am asked is, “What’s next?”  Sometimes I know the answer and sometimes I don’t.

This time, I sorta know the answer and sorta don’t.  I intentionally left things open for post Vinson/post Antarctica so I wouldn’t be locked into any plan that might need changing after the life changing adventure that is Antarctica.  So as things are still drifting gently into place, Marian and I have been enjoying a week at home, taking it easy, doing lots of “beauty and order” projects around the house.  When one travels as much as I do, some times the piles get a bit too big around the house and they need to be tamed before they start migrated like wildebeests across the Savannah.  In the spirit of the New Year and fresh beginnings, we’re joining thousands of others in looking at our belongings to see which can be gifted/lent/donated/stuck in piles with “Take me, I’m yours” signs on them.

The results are great.  Lots of things checked off the to-do lists.  A feeling of both internal and external spaciousness.  A calmness in our home environment that’s a welcome foil to the challenges of the inner chaos of transitioning from one continent to another, one year to another, one time zone to another.  Today we hung new Tibetan prayer flags in our meditation space in celebration and welcoming of 2012 to remind ourselves that in fact, every moment is new.

I followed a tweet to the this piece of writing that was originally posted on The Arise India Forum.  I posted it on Facebook and many people seemed touched by it.  I know I was.  It was a gift to read on the cusp of a New Year as thoughts naturally turn to hopes and dreams and aspirations for the coming year(s).  Reading this person’s post, (and I’m still trying to track it back to the original post), reminds me of one of the fundamental Buddhist teachings on the preciousness of a human birth and how it’s critical to live one’s life in such a way to have as few regrets as possible.  The post has me thinking and reflecting on my life and what I want to focus on in the coming year.  I appreciate that both this post and the quote that Karen sent me arrived in the same week because both emphasize the importance of “small” things…which likely aren’t really so small after all.

Wishing you all the best, all the laughter, joy, and lots of love in 2012.

Nurse Reveals Top 5 Regrets of the Dying

“For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives

People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learnt never to underestimate someone’s capacity for growth. Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventually acceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.

When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:

1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.

It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn’t work so hard.

This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children’s youth and their partner’s companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.

By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.

Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.

We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.

It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called ‘comfort’ of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.

When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.

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Visual Soliloquy #401: Courage is knowing what not to fear…

Courage is knowing what not to fear.
– Plato

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Visual Soliloquy #400: When everything seems to be going against you…

When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it. – Henry Ford

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Visual Soliloquy #399: If you obey all the rules, you’ll miss all the fun…

If you obey all the rules, you’ll miss all the fun.
– Katherine Hepburn

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Visual Soliloquy #398: Do the thing you fear most and the death of fear is certain…

Do the thing you fear most and the death of fear is certain. – Mark Twain

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Visual Soliloquy #397: An ounce of action is worth a ton of theory…

An ounce of action is worth a ton of theory.
– Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Visual Soliloquy #396: Trusting our intuition often saves us from disaster…

Trusting our intuition often saves us from disaster.
– Anne Wilson Schaef

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Visual Soliloquy #395: The everyday practice is simply to develop complete…

The everyday practice is simply to develop complete acceptance and openness to all situations and emotions, and to all people, experiencing everything totally without reservations or blockages so that one never withdraws or centralizes into oneself.

–Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche

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Merry Christmas

A Mountain of Merry Christmas Wishes to You and Yours.  Wishing you peace, love, and contentment in the 2012 (with a liberal sprinkling of challenge and adventure)

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Vinson Vignette #5: Wasting Away in Vinsonville

In my last vignette, I mentioned building snow sculptures down near the privies at Vinson Base Camp. Since I mentioned them, I thought I would do a vignette on how human waste is dealt with both at Union Glacier and Vinson Base Camp…so a warning…there is lots of potty talk below.

At Union Glacier, the toilets are contained in modular trailer like units. Users are asked to separate their urine and feces. The urine is captured then hand pumped into tanks for transportation back to Chile for proper disposal. Similarly, feces are stored in containers until they can be flown back to South America (with the cold and absence of decomposing bacteria, any feces deposited in Antarctica will remain there for a very long time. Antarctica Logistics and Expeditions (the company that provides and flights and base camps) has made a tremendous commitment to protecting the fragile environment of Antarctica.

At Vinson Base Camp, feces and urine are separately as well (can be quite a challenge sometimes for those of us of the female persuasion). Feces are collected in special containers (seen above) for transportation back to Chile. Urine is dumped into a single augered hole at each camp. At base camp, we women had the convenience of using a big pee bucket rather than our pee bottles.

Grey water from cooking and dishes is strained to remove any particles and is then dumped down the camp’s urine hole.

Above base camp, climbers must collect their feces in a “wag bag”. These handy kits contain a capture bag that has some cool powder that turns liquid solid and then an outer ziplock for overall storage. Each kit also has a handy wipe and a bit of TP.

Between camps, one has to do a fancy “hold the wag bag up to your bottom to catch” manoeuvre. A both low and high camp, small buckets with toilet seats make the move much easier (and the snow walls afford a wee bit of privacy from the others sharing camp).

The deed is done and packaged. Fortunately the super cold freezes the wag bag solid pretty quickly. Each climber carries his or her waste down the mountain back to base camp where it is then collected all together for the flight to Union Glacier and onto Chile for proper disposal.

Here’s what a urine/grey water dump looks like. Again, between camps, climbers must capture their urine in a pee bottle and carry it up or down the mountain to a dump site.

It takes some effort to deal with one’s waste properly but keeping Vinson from looking like a bathroom is very worth it. The impacts of us being there were concentrated in a few locations, most waste was taken to more fertile soil for decomposition, and there was much less “yellow” snow than on any other mountain I’ve been on.

 

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Vinson Vignette #4: Ice Axes and Inukshuks

This will likely end up my favourite image from the trip: My ice axe on the summit. I like a slight dash of red playing off the almost duo-chrome black and white. It reminds me of the awesome view from the summit of Vinson Massif and of the multitude of factors that must come together to stand atop any mountain. The ice axe is a mountaineer’s fundamental tool. It allows us to arrest a fall, chop steps in the ice, ascend step faces, and safeguard our teammates. The black tape on my ice axe holds closed-cell foam in place where I put my hand. This insulation keeps the hand holding the axe a bit warmer.

Here on the summit, my ice axe became a prayer flag holder. Some may remember that in 2009, I climbed Mount Elbrus in honour of my dad, Heinz, and took some prayer flags to that summit for him. Originally, I’d wanted to climb Vinson for him but I worried I wouldn’t get to Antarctica in time. Giving the timing of my Vinson expedition around the second anniversary of my dad’s passing, I felt very close to him throughout. There were several moments where I happened to check my watch (always an effort under four layers of clothing) and the time was 12:34. So here’s to you dad, we all miss you a bunch!

On the first day back at base camp after summitting, we were treated to a lovely day of blue and white. The rangers has been cutting new snow blocks for a privy privacy wall. They left their saw behind, the block quarry looked high quality and I suddenly found myself playing in the snow. I sculpted letters spelling TA and Vinson. At one point, one of my teammates came back as asked, “Why did you carve the word television?” I took down the “TA” to eliminate any confusion because I certainly wasn’t thinking about TV at any point while on the continent.

With the confidence of early success/beginner’s mind in place, my thoughts turned to Michael Beecher Smith and I decided to honour his memory once again by building him an inukshuk in Antarctica. In supporting his family in their grieving for him, I built an inukshuk for Michael looking over at Everest in 2007 and again in 2010. Although time has passed, I know they still miss him each and every day.

My time in Antarctica was rich with both remembering and remembrance. It was an experience of deep joy as well as deep sorrow (at times.) My memories of the specialness of Antarctica are imbued with the memories of some special people and of ice axes and inukshuks.

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Vinson Vignette #3: Bookends and Rope Teams

When I arrived in Santiago three weeks ago, I popped up to the Great Gatsby to have some dinner while I waited for my connection to Punta Arenas. Tonight, as I passed the time to my Toronto connection, I did the same. Turns out I ordered the same meal: a cheese and chicken quesadilla with guacamole. It seemed right. To finish the experience in the way I started. To provide bookends on a very cool (excuse the pun) life experience. A recognition of start and finish and the line of rope in between.

A series of crevasses on a glacier (seen from the air)

Glacier mountaineering is a somewhat unique experience. It requires the team to “rope up” to defend against the danger of falling into a crevasse. The hope is, that by spreading the team out along 120 metres of rope or so, not everyone will end up on the same snow bridge over a crevasse. That way, if a snow bridge over a crevasse collapses and someone drops in, the rest of the team can fall down onto their ice axes and keep the dropping climber from going too deep. In theory. Crevasses can be quite terrifying: icy, cold, and often dark. These dangerous slots are often hidden by a blanket of snow. Narrowing at their bottoms. We always hope that we never pitch in head first.

The most experienced climber usually leads the rope team up the glacier. The second most experienced is often the last with other team members tied in between. The leader tries to set a pace for climbing that everyone can be comfortable with as the team needs to take every step in unison. Minute after minute, hour after hour each individual subjugates her or his individual pace for one that works as a whole. The rope must be maintained at just the right amount of tension: too much slack and a team member will drop deeper into a potentially icy grave; too tight and frustration and tripping reign. Moving on a rope team seems to me to be like playing in a symphony (though I never have and likely never will-was standing at the back of the line when they gave out music ability). I must be intimately aware of my individual part and how I play it while as the same time, fitting my movement into the orchestration of the whole. It is truly a lived experience of “one for all and all for one.”

It’s a funny thing to meet people one day and two days later, be placing the care of your life into their hands. Ideally, I’d get to climb with the same people each expedition and we’d develop that faith and trust in each other over time. In reality, I climb with new folks every time and so have learned both to surrender and to trust the rope that binds us together. Sometimes we formalize and openly speak of the commitment to each other, other times we use the act of tying into rope to signify that bond.

I was one of the bookends of the rope team for the Vinson expedition. I inhabited the last spot on the rope for the whole expedition. It’s my favourite spot in that it allows me to take pictures of the team, manage only one rope strand, and notice my competence and ability (as the furthest spot from the leader-he or she has to trust your abilities to put you back that far). In the Bible and rope teams, “The first shall go last and the last shall go first.” When we’d finished a carry or were coming down from the summit, it was my job to lead the team down and set the pace (this also sets up the leader to be the last ditch catch should the team need one).

We took every step from base camp to the summit roped together. By sharing every footstep, we shared the climb in an intimate physical way even though, while climbing, it was hard to exchange any words except at breaks. Another lived experience of “being both alone and together and for that, and my teammates, I am grateful.

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Vinson Vignette #2: Newfoundland Flag First Out of the Bag

This flag has been to the top of six continents with me. I purchased it on a whim when heading to Alaska for the climb that started all of this, Denali. I packed it away, carried it uphill for 26 days, and pulled it out on McKinley’s summit to celebrate the moment of being on top. The view that day was mixed with the clouds occluding much of the view but on occasion, parting to review the magnificent views below. I didn’t know, in that moment atop Denali, that my life direction would change and that I would subsequently commit myself to the epic challenge of climbing Mount Everest and the rest of the Seven Summits (that came later that summer once I’d taken the flag home).

Now six and a half years later, this same flag was the first one I took out of the bag on the summit of Vinson Massif in Antarctica. If it were to happen that there would be only time or opportunity for one summit picture, I wanted it to be with this flag, the Newfoundland flag (as it turned out weather conditions were perfect on the summit and I could pull a number of items out of the “summit bag.”)

Why this one? Good question…

From the moment, I spied my first iceberg at along the rocky shores of Cape Spear in 1995, I knew Newfoundland and Labrador would occupy a very special place in my heart and soul. I love where I live. I’m proud of where I live. In taking the Newfoundland flag with me, I feel like I bring home along to the mountain. It becomes a symbol for sharing the mountain (whichever one it is) with friends and loved ones as well as neighbours, strangers, and school children. The flag becomes an invitation for all to join in in the expedition, to take a few steps in my boots, and to celebrate when we all reach the top. It does feel like I take the entire province with me (and anyone else who wants to come along)…I take each and every person who chuckled as I dragged a tire by them on Signal Hill, each person who stopped me on the trails to ask how my training was going, each person who purchased a Xander penguin t-shirt, each person who sent a kind word, or who clicked on refresh to see if we reached the summit along on the climb through this flag. Each of those interactions of support are in the pixels of the flag’s fabric and now, in the warp and weft of my life (both at home and while away on a mountain). Though I appear on the summit alone, I see all of you there with me.

This flag also hasn’t been to the summit of Mount Everest twice. Or the top of Iceland or France. The summit is never assured but is “some nice” when I have the privilege of standing there. The summit doesn’t represent “success” or “failure” to me but instead, a culmination of months (or years) of effort, focus, and perseverance coupled with a dose of luck and decent weather. Some times all those factors come together and I get to see the view from “where I can climb no higher” and other times, I must turn my back on that highest place and hope to reach it another time.

I, along with my team, reached the summit of Vinson Massif on December 11. I wasn’t confident we were going to get there until we started up the final summit ridge. The weather remained perfect. The ridge divine. As we reached the final rise that marked the top, I welled with emotions that ranged from soaring happiness to deep grief (we landed at Vinson base camp on the second anniversary of my dad’s death). I soaked in the view of the Sentinel Range and stretched my eyes to the icy expanse of the Antarctic Plateau. “I am standing atop Antarctica, I am standing atop Antarctica, I am standing atop Antarctica,” I repeated over and over. And you stood there too!

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Vinson Vignette #1: Lost for Words

OK…I’ve been trying to write this blog entry for 24 hours and I guess I just have to admit that I am lost for words. Or a starting point. I’m missing a place to jump off in trying to explain what and how and why the past few weeks were so powerful as to leave me fighting to write, when usually the descriptors come flowing from my finger tips into the keyboard and dance across the screen, like lightening in the summer sky.

But instead, it’s all changed. As my friend, Terry Watson, warned me it would, “Antarctica changes you,” she said simply. And it has. And I’m not even sure how. It’s the feeling that remains after an earth tremor, the ground has all moved, and things look the same, but they are not. And I’m not. In a good way.

In a way such that I’m trying to find syllables to describe one million shades of white. The circling, not setting of the sun. A breeze so potent it chills, then freezes quickly, almost without notice. Blue. Black. White. A limited colour palette interrupted only by the colourful dots of humanity who temporarily inhabit the place. The place of perpetual ice and snow. Unending day for months at a time, then night for the same. Remote. Stark. Pristine. Rhymes with the chapel, only more sacred for me.

Cold, hot. Almost in the same second. Needing to give up the duality of those two extremes as they meld into the intensity of my experience of Antarctica. The sound of every footstep. Always heard, most often seen. For centuries. Any trace I leave there will persist. Well beyond me. Even the simple act of a hair falling from my head onto the ice spreads my DNA. I don’t mean to but how do I stop it from falling? I can’t. I don’t. Though I do try to collect the ones that collect in the vestibule of the tent. Along with the errant goose down, busted toe nails, and other detritus castaways of humanness that we accidentally spread.

I know I am small in this landscape. A mere blip on the continuum of humanity. I could be swallowed whole by this place if I am not careful. This place of white. Of snow. Of ice. Of sky so big and wide and blue that it feels like my eye iris might crack or explode from trying to let in all that light that matches it so perfectly. Of blue that alchemizes into white at the frontiers of a horizon so vast it can hardly be perceived, let alone described. Over and over again each day as the sun circles above, my heart beats below in a symphony of appreciation for the sensation of such vastness.

No wonder I don’t have words!

Fortunately, I am a child of the Canadian National Film Board and as such, know the value of a vignette. And of alliteration. And of trying. To find words. That match the pictures in my head. And in my camera. And truly communicate the experience that I am hoping to share… of climbing Antarctica’s highest peak while opening to the lessons presented in each step.

This Vinson journey has been a time of numbers. A countdown from 85 days beginning after seven years of hoping and dreaming. Lojong slogans from one to 24, each one shaping my mind on the way, and knowing as always, it gets easier after taking the first step. So do forgive the faulting start and yet another series of numbered entries…the laboured first few breaths/words of stepping high at altitude…I’ll share additional vignettes from the mountain as they become available through my fingertips and within my understanding, of both the place and my place within it.

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Vinson Visual Lojong #22: Don’t bring things to a painful point

Lojong is a Tibetan Buddhist mind training practice based on a set of 59 slogans first formulated in the 12th century. For most of my climbs, my Buddhist mentor (or “Buddhist Personal Trainer” as I like to call her) prepares a list of slogans in advance based on the itinerary. Each day I use the day’s slogan as a way to work with any challenges that arise in my mind or surroundings or both. For Vinson, I’ve decided to share the slogans in my blog so that you can follow along with the slogans and the climb. For further information on Lojong (and what the slogans actually mean since some of them may seem a bit strange), you can google “lojong” and do some reading. I particularly like Pema Chodren’s interpretation of the slogans.

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Vinson Massif: Team Returns to Punta Arenas

Posted by: Dave Hahn | December 19, 2011

Elevation: 121′

This is Dave Hahn calling from Antarctica our Vinson season ended today. About midday, around 11 AM, we flew from Vinson Basecamp back to Union Glacier. Today was a beautiful day out there, big blue sky all around, the clouds were gone and we had good flying conditions back to Union Glacier. The Illyusion came in this evening and my climbers should be getting to Punta Arenas right about now. I’m still in Antarctica; I am going to stay on for one more project down here to the South Pole. T.A, Mindy and Vlado should be enjoying Punta Arenas tonight. A successful trip all around.

Best Regards
RMI Guide Dave Hahn

Reposted from the Rainier Mountaineering Blog (http://www.rmiguides.com/blog/)

Many thanks to the Newfoundland and Labrador Credit Union for their financial assistance in getting TA to Antarctica to climb Mount Vinson.

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Vinson Visual Lojong #21: In post meditation, be a child of illusion

Lojong is a Tibetan Buddhist mind training practice based on a set of 59 slogans first formulated in the 12th century. For most of my climbs, my Buddhist mentor (or “Buddhist Personal Trainer” as I like to call her) prepares a list of slogans in advance based on the itinerary. Each day I use the day’s slogan as a way to work with any challenges that arise in my mind or surroundings or both. For Vinson, I’ve decided to share the slogans in my blog so that you can follow along with the slogans and the climb. For further information on Lojong (and what the slogans actually mean since some of them may seem a bit strange), you can google “lojong” and do some reading. I particularly like Pema Chodren’s interpretation of the slogans.

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Vinson Visual Lojong #20: Train without bias in all areas. It is crucial always to do this pervasively and wholeheartedly

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Vinson Massif: Clouds …

Here is the latest update from TA’s team who are waiting to fly out of Mount Vinson base camp:

Posted by: Dave Hahn | December 17, 2011
Elevation: 7,200′

The clouds and fog took over Vinson basecamp again today. There was slight improvement by late afternoon, but not enough to get airplanes moving our way. Our team hasn’t been particularly worked up or worried by the enforced downtime though. Naps are popular, reading and mathematical puzzles pass the time. We went for another glacier walk today. Meals together never fail to entertain. The forecast apparently calls for better weather tomorrow. Fingers Crossed.

Best Regards
RMI Guide Dave Hahn

Reposted from the Rainier Mountaineering Blog (http://www.rmiguides.com/blog/)

Many thanks to the Newfoundland and Labrador Credit Union for their financial assistance in getting TA to Antarctica to climb Mount Vinson.

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Vinson Visual Lojong #19: If you can practice even when distracted, you are well trained

Lojong is a Tibetan Buddhist mind training practice based on a set of 59 slogans first formulated in the 12th century.  For most of my climbs, my Buddhist mentor (or “Buddhist Personal Trainer” as I like to call her) prepares a list of slogans in advance based on the itinerary.  Each day I use the day’s slogan as a way to work with any challenges that arise in my mind or surroundings or both.  For Vinson, I’ve decided to share the slogans in my blog so that you can follow along with the slogans and the climb.  For further information on Lojong (and what the slogans actually mean since some of them may seem a bit strange), you can google “lojong” and do some reading.  I particularly like Pema Chodren’s interpretation of the slogans.

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Vinson Massif: Snow sculpture contest at VBC

Here is the latest update from TA’s team who are still waiting in Antarctica:

Posted by: | December 16, 2011
Elevation: 7,200′

Another day drifting in the Vinson Basecamp milk bottle, surrounded by whiteness. Except it was fun. The RMI team competed in a snow sculpture contest with the New Zealand team and the German Team today. TA built a Canadian living room replica, complete with couch, fireplace, TV and maple leaf. Then she joined Mindy and I in constructing a team of sled dogs pulling a sled and a towering and imposing Amundson, arriving at the Pole. We’ll concede that he was so massive that his dog team appeared to be composed of puppies, rabbits and squirrels. The German guide, Reigner, built an impressive titanic replica. Vlado made snow angels inside his tent. After dinner the ALE staff judged the artwork and found each and every climber to be deserving of a cold beverage. Twenty of us, from 11 countries, sat in the basecamp headquarters tent for that beverage and a fine custard desert and received the good news that the ALE Twin Otters had just departed South Pole bound for Union Glacier. If our weather shapes up by morning, things could start happening fast. Or not. We shall see.

Best Regards
RMI Guide Dave Hahn

Reposted from the Rainier Mountaineering Blog (http://www.rmiguides.com/blog/)

Many thanks to the Newfoundland and Labrador Credit Union for their financial assistance in getting TA to Antarctica to climb Mount Vinson.

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Vinson Visual Lojong #18: Self-liberate even the antidote

Lojong is a Tibetan Buddhist mind training practice based on a set of 59 slogans first formulated in the 12th century.  For most of my climbs, my Buddhist mentor (or “Buddhist Personal Trainer” as I like to call her) prepares a list of slogans in advance based on the itinerary.  Each day I use the day’s slogan as a way to work with any challenges that arise in my mind or surroundings or both.  For Vinson, I’ve decided to share the slogans in my blog so that you can follow along with the slogans and the climb.  For further information on Lojong (and what the slogans actually mean since some of them may seem a bit strange), you can google “lojong” and do some reading.  I particularly like Pema Chodren’s interpretation of the slogans.

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Vinson Massif: Not so much happening

Posted by: Dave Hahn | December 16, 2011

Elevation: 7,200′

The clouds around Vinson basecamp lifted some today, but didn’t go away. In particular they were stuck over the Nimitz Glacier and the approaches for an airplane trying to get into the Branscomb. There was some optimism this morning, what with blue sky over camp and Vinson’s summit visible again, but it never quite got good enough to tempt the Twin Otters in from Union. Eventually they gave up on us and flew back to the South Pole to pick up more centenerary celebrants. That being a long round trip, our next window of opportunity to fly from Vinson would be tomorrow afternoon. We passed the day easily and quietly. TA, Vlado, Mindy and I went for a glacier walk in the afternoon to stretch legs. In the evening the ALE crew generously hosted a dinner for the three climbing teams. The food was superb… And we were all just plain happy to sit in real chairs for a time.

Best Regards
RMI Guide Dave Hahn

Reposted from the Rainier Mountaineering Blog (http://www.rmiguides.com/blog/)

Many thanks to the Newfoundland and Labrador Credit Union for their financial assistance in getting TA to Antarctica to climb Mount Vinson.

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Vinson Visual Lojong #17: Don’t be swayed by external circumstances

Lojong is a Tibetan Buddhist mind training practice based on a set of 59 slogans first formulated in the 12th century.  For most of my climbs, my Buddhist mentor (or “Buddhist Personal Trainer” as I like to call her) prepares a list of slogans in advance based on the itinerary.  Each day I use the day’s slogan as a way to work with any challenges that arise in my mind or surroundings or both.  For Vinson, I’ve decided to share the slogans in my blog so that you can follow along with the slogans and the climb.  For further information on Lojong (and what the slogans actually mean since some of them may seem a bit strange), you can google “lojong” and do some reading.  I particularly like Pema Chodren’s interpretation of the slogans.

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Vinson Massif: Hanging out at base camp

Here is the latest update from TA’s team who are in Antarctica:

Posted by: Dave Hahn | December 14, 2011
Elevation: 7,200′

Not so much to report today besides a good brunch and a fine dinner. Thick fog and cloud blanketed Vinson basecamp for much of the day. This made things predictably cool outside the tents and it was difficult to walk anywhere without feeling a touch of vertigo in the all-encompassing white-out. No news about the availability of aircraft either. Obviously not an urgent matter with the clouds glued into the Branscomb Glacier. Still, Vlado, TA, Mindy and I all enjoyed the day and will always remember where we were for the South Pole centennial.

Best Regards,
RMI Guide Dave Hahn

Reposted from the Rainier Mountaineering Blog (http://www.rmiguides.com/blog/)

Many thanks to the Newfoundland and Labrador Credit Union for their financial assistance in getting TA to Antarctica to climb Mount Vinson.

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Vinson Visual Lojong #16: Three objects, three poisons, and three seeds of virtue

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